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November 2009 
Thank you everyone!
Posted on Sep 1st, 2009
by 
Dryad
Dryad
Dear Incredible People,
I am full of awe, surprise, amazement, happiness and a flood of tears. I did not expect to find anything here for my birthday. I came over to send a message to ask someone something and look what I found!! I have been absent more than present during the last year. It is wonderful to know that you have not forgotten me. There is no gathering of souls anywhere, that has the special kind of giving care that is found here at Gaia. I still - always - think of it as my home.
As this (no doubt) will be a little long, I’m going to put it at my Blog as well. I can’t seem to ever find anything worth Bloging about, but this definitely qualifies.
I’ve had a very difficult year in all the aspects of person-hood - physical, emotional, spiritual, intellectual and the fluff that keeps getting in my ear. There are so many things at Gaia I would love to participate in - first and foremost would be get the cobwebs out of PLAY POD. It may still happen, who knows. I don’t seem to be getting past just survival many days. I am writing quite a bit and have been doing a little painting. At some point there will be a self-pressed poetry book and a web site of my paintings. In the works . . . someday I hope to have some part of “the works” come to completion.
My personal life is in a state of limbo and I’m not sure what happens there next either. I suspect this is not particularly a strange thing to be happening at my age. One of the things I love about Gaia, is that it has taught me that I am not alone in my feelings. I may be very different than Jane Q. Public, but with a group where my dynamics are very similar - they are many things I can learn from what others have experienced.
My eldest daughter leaves me TOMORROW. After four years working as a Literary Specialist and Dramaturg at the Oregon Shakespeare Festival, she is going to the University of Washington in Seattle to teach Shakespeare and finish her PhD. She goes from “Stage” to “Page” a bit of a jump, but she is very dedicated to bringing theatre to the next generation and this seems to her like a good way to proceed from here. She already has a cute little apartment in one of Seattle’s “Neighborhoods” and is very excited. I’ve been a little west of devastated - as this was the last of my children and they were all to be “quite gone.” While she was away at college and in England doing the Masters and PhD prep, I still had one at home. That one is a rising Junior at the University of Oregon. At the last moment he announced that he wasn’t going back to school this year. He is at the point where he must declare a major and get ready to do what he is going to do and he hasn’t got a clue what that may be. So he is taking a year off. He will work and read a lot - possibly travel if he lands a job in which he can make some bank. I am frozen with conflicted emotions. I know a break part way through can be a good thing. I should have done it myself. Yet . . . I also know a lot of folks who went away and didn’t go back. I want him in college, but something inside me is relieved and so happy to know he will be here. They won’t all be gone after all. I know this is just postponing the inevitable, but . . .
I had another major-type surgery earlier this month and ended up getting an infection that won’t go away. It takes everything out of you and I didn’t have that much to take! I AM still hopeful that when I get this cleared up I can begin working toward more mobility. I’m not ready for the Boston Marathon, but I am at a point where I play a mean game of Pooh Sticks!
Thank you, everyone . . . Thank you so much. Especially you, Starseed my dear, who never forgets me and is a blessing to my life. You ALL will never know how much this means to me.
Much Love ~
Dryad
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