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November 2009 
MRI, Abutment, Abduction, Horse Tails & Transcendent Trees
Posted on Apr 19th, 2008
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Dryad
Dryad
I promised some of you an “update.” I’m not sure this counts, being much more of a question than an answer, but that seems to be the size of things. I used to think that a question came first and an answer was the conclusion. One question, one answer to follow. I don’t think that is the case anymore. I’m not sure what their relationship is - questions and answers - but like all relationships, it just isn’t that simple.
E.P. Cross, Results of MRI (Mildly Radical Insanity)
There is a considerable impingement of the dipwhipper by the 12th tine of the borkelfork; the 714th trolley secular car is anterior in conjunction with sha-la-la-la, this is complicated by the compression of bopbamaloo which is responsible for loss of signal in the schniddlemurk that results in she-bop-bam-boom! F-1 (phantom bomber) is deployed because the central canal has narrowed, causing flooding on the valley floor where Fibro-oid-nad has gone ske-bumpus on the tiddley- twaddley. The preponderance of rhyme is evident though rhythm is in retropulsion causing deflection of kangaroo, i.e. Captain which all appear, with difficulty and Jeans (M.R. Green), to be more pronounced, due to a lisp and unwarranted giggles, occurring in the prior study.
Really. It’s not that bad - it’s worse. I haven’t got a clue what it says. I also think it is rude to begin something like this by saying that someone’s anterior is compressed and deformed. I’m not sure they should be looking at my anterior anyway! :-P
Due to several really spectacular snafu’s, my doctor has seen the MRI and the report, I’ve seen the report, but not the MRI, I haven’t seen my doctor and she hasn’t seen me. No one has seen the surgeon, but the doctor is trying hard. It is suspected that he may have gone to Ireland for Saint Patrick’s Day at which point I, naturally, suspect abduction by the Wee Folk. Given he is about 6'6" it is, at least, fun to indulge in contemplation of said abduction whilst waiting for him to come back from wherever he actually is.
My information came from my own reading of the MRI report and from speaking to the Physician’s Assistant who hadn’t seen the MRI and was reading the report as she spoke to me over the telephone. My understanding is less than perfect right now. It may even turn out that I’m mixed up completely on what is going on. I also have no idea whatsoever what happens next. I still don’t like the sound of any of the options, but given how mixed up this sounds to me, the castle in Lottery/Spain option doesn’t sound all that wild. I think I’m going with that one, regardless.
SO, from what I can understand: the other three cracked vertebrae have not significantly changed which is good news. The bad news is that one vertebrae has evidently slipped on to another. I don’t understand this at all, I came to this conclusion from translating words in the report from Latin to English, back to Latin and back to English. Do you understand that? I don’t. There are several “bulging” disks in my lower back. I knew that, but it seems that said disks are indulging in more bulging than we knew. One bulger seems to be pressing on my spinal column badly, or I think badly. Having no comparative norms, I can’t tell the severity of their severe or how considerable their considerable is. It seems that my “ anterior thecal sac is deflected and causing severe abutment of the conus medullaris.” In good old every day English, deflected and abutment are almost antonyms. I think they are using abutment differently than in regular English - rather than abutment meaning “support” or something that receives and therefore relieves weight - as in the abutment of a bridge - they mean something is pushing against something else. I think. Item A pushing against Item B (abutment?), thus causing Item B to be out of line (deflected?) I’m having a very hard time visualizing what is being deflected and how and what is being abutted and exactly what the whole thing means or how it relates to the abduction of the surgeon. Anyone out there speak this language?
My favorite thing that I discovered is this: The conus medullaris is the terminal end of the spinal cord. The conus medullaris is what is being abutted. Receiving abutment? Getting shoved? This is the fun part, though . . . after the spinal cord terminates . . . that doesn’t sound good does it? It sounds rather sinister to me. Sorry . . . after the spinal cord terminates, the spinal nerves continue as dangling nerves called the cauda equina. Those language nerds among you are now going, “equina? horse?” Yes!
All these roots and rootlets of nerves dangling down the vertebral column give the appearance of a horse's tail, which is the meaning of the Latin name cauda equina. Now, I have to wonder if this has anything to do with Peri and Mary and I turning into horses in “Horses of Valor.” I also have to wonder how I am going to explain this to all these doctors? :-P . . . “well, you see, my friends and I were playing horses, we were galloping along and then we just up and turned into . . .”
In Whose Imagination - Riding Cloud Canyon
Regardless of whatever it is that is going on - from the inside out - I’m a little bit better in the last two days, after having spent most of my time in bed and walking slowly. I’m back to the computer today for a few short periods of time. I’ve got a great little timer that tells me when I must get up and stretch/walk. It’s so . . .ANNOYING! Right in the middle of a thought or when I’ve finally found the right word . . . MAAH! . . . MAAH! . . . MAAH! . . . MAAH! The thing thinks it is a baby goat.
WI BabyGoat Wolters 102006
The Redwoods were magnificent. I was sick a good part of the weekend, but the hours that we spent in the trees were transcendent. It had been raining so we didn’t hike much, being more afraid of slipping than usual and having stamina equal to none. (Yes, that sentence could mean two things. I will leave you to decide.) There was no one else in the park at all. We drove all the way around the loop through both sides of the Jedediah Smith Redwood’s State Park several times going about five miles an hour and only saw one other car. The sun was coming down through the dripping branches and splitting into long, brave banners of swirling faery dust. Every once in a while a bank of fog would attack from the ocean. It prowled like a huge grey cat, gliding languid and liquid through the trees, leaving kittens on some of the branches. Each kitten climbed and frolicked the top of their tree for a while and then they rolled themselves up and streaked across the sky to tumble back among the rest of the Fog Cat Family once again.
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There were raindrops everywhere, and so there were rainbows everywhere as well; they arched among the trees for a few moments and then were gone in the next twist of the sun. There were the tiny, dancing kind of rainbows than come from a single drop of water; the kind that you are not even completely sure you’ve seen, but then you ‘almost’ see another and another and then, suddenly, THAT one WAS a rainbow, you are sure! A rainbow just the size of the sparkle in your eye.
Rainbow Eyes
The ferns have just finished their opening dance and the fiddle heads are right behind them, unrolling like a yawning cats tongue. There were delicate, white flowers everywhere. I’m not sure what they are - they looked like a cross between a Colorado Columbine and the Lady Slippers that came out in the early spring of the woods of Maine.
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This was my fantastic new invention . . . this is especially for you Alya, since you always remember . . .It’s called “LOOK UP: THE REDWOOD BALLET.” In the park, the road is narrow; it was built around the trees not through them. In other words, they didn’t cut trees to make the road, they built the road around the trees, so it winds around and around and passes very close to the trees. My husband was driving, going about 5 mph. I turned side wards in my seat, rolled down my window and put my feet in his lap. Then I put my neck pillow between my neck and the window casing and I put my head OUT the window! Just barely out, but out far enough that I had a clear view straight up into the tremendous soaring trees. Down on the ground it was quite shady with occasional beams of light dancing alone; sliding around the tree trunks and leaping through the clearings. Up in the tops of the trees everything had changed places. The sun was shining brightly and it was the shadows that twirled and spun through the new, spring leaves so far from the forest floor. The car wove slowly and the trees danced above my eyes. It wasn’t any time at all before I could “switch” and see myself and the car holding still and the trees moving. I’m just not sure I’ve ever seen a ballet quite as mighty and magnificent as the Jedediah Smith Redwood’s doing Vivaldi’s Four Seasons.
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Gidon Kremer - Vivaldi's Four Seasons - Spring (I. Allegro)
It was a glorious day, full of treasure and wonder. I was in Niap for many minutes that probably added up to more than an hour which was utterly magnificent. It was the kind of day for a lot of ThunWoosh. Umm. ThunWoosh. I think that is another Blog. Stay Tuned.
Thank you again to each of you who have helped me with strength, light and love. I don’t know what is going to happen next, but I feel a little more able to cope with it now - what ever it is.
Blessings ~
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Aloha Dear Radiant One & Mahalo for such a transcendent journey through a favorite place of my 20s, Jebediah Smith Redwoods, which sang and danced for me again in your word visuals.
May this video bring you joy as I surround your bulging discs with Love and ask them ti heal.
Much Love, Gobs of Laughter & Blessed Is<
Jeremiah
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncscQ6z2ylQ&eurl=http://sunchildren.ning.com/forum/topic/show?id=1298026%3ATopic%3A102926
When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius
Age of Aquarius
Aquarius!
Aquarius!
Harmony and understanding
Sympathy and trust abounding
No more falsehoods or derisions
Golden living dreams of visions
Mystic crystal revelation
And the mind's true liberation
Aquarius!
Aquarius!
When the moon is in the Seventh House
And Jupiter aligns with Mars
Then peace will guide the planets
And love will steer the stars
This is the dawning of the age of Aquarius
Age of Aquarius
Aquarius!
Aquarius!
Aquarius!
Aquarius!
[instrumental and tempo shift]
Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in
Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in
Let the sunshine, let the sunshine in, the sunshine in
[continue to end with concurrent scat]
Oh, let it shine, c'mon
Now everybody just sing along
Let the sun shine in
Open up your heart and let it shine on in
When you are lonely, let it shine on
Got to open up your heart and let it shine on in
And when you feel like you've been mistreated
And your friends turn away
Just open your heart, and shine it on in
–
Much Love, Gobs of Laughter & Blessed IS,
Jeremiah
much giggling!!!!
I wonder at what was the desired response, however having been through many of these sorts of tests for other things…it is MUCH more fun…I made a spy drama out of mine
ROFLMAO
many kisses….
:D
love your redwood ballet and rainbow eyes.
I visited those magnificent trees once a hundred years ago and someone had put the road right through a tree. Hope you planted a sampling at the base of your spine so you can feel it grow day by day, straight and tall and magnificent.
xxxj
Consider putting your computer up on a counter or desk tall enough to stand at.
And get that inversion table. Really.
Krissy has been dealing with a herniated disc issue for the last month, I understand the timer thing completely, and she's slowly improving. But it was very bad initially, not bad like what you're going through, but very bad. So I'll share all the wisdom we've acquired: build your abs. Do crunches, even if you don't come up off the bed at all, just the thought and the effort and holding your abs in while doing it will build support on the front side of your spine. Hang upside down. If all the way upside down is too much, just hang a little inverted for at least 20 minutes twice a day. Stretch your calf muscles, they will get really tight and cramp up if you don't. Don't sit hunched over. Do backbends, even little tiny ones.
All these things are so boring next to visioning and vibing and having good thoughts, which are also awesome and healing, but about physical stuff I veer toward the practical everyday things so that's my offering. I hope things go well for you.
I am so glad you got to go on your trip among the dancing trees - its sounds peaceful, magical and wonderful! Maybe that has something to do with why your are feeling a little tiny bit better now? I bet it does.
Having worked in a hospital for many years, I am totally in the belief that we have more to do with healing ourselves than doctors ever can. I've come to look at them as glorified mechanics of a sort, and realize that just like when a car breaks down, when our bodies break - they are guessing at what is wrong like the rest of us (granted educated guessing). Then they try their best to fix or replace our parts - but in the end, they are only human just like us. However, the power of your heart and mind are limitless - so if you put that to work for you - you will be making the job easier for the “mechanics”. :0)
I do medical transcription in Pathology and know how confusing those words can sound. I don't know what they all mean either, mostly I can just spell them, but I can help you with a couple:
abut: to touch along a border or with a projecting part <land abuts on the road>
to terminate at a point of contact
to lean for support: to border on <their property abuts our land>
anterior: relating to or situated near or toward the head
situated toward the front of the body
deflection: a turning aside or deviation from a straight line
Here is a good free online resource for medical words in case you need it for the future:
http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/mplusdictionary.html
Stay strong my dear Dryad, don't let the mechanics get you down, remember to listen to your own voice always, and know that my love goes with you.
Jami
Hi dear Dryad,
Something told me, “Look, you really have to go read Dryad's blog. You know, you haven't in a little while, and you really want to be doing that!” Well, when I got here, the screen started to split into top and bottom somehow, and I could no longer scroll, so this is finally my chance to reply. Your humor is so beautiful and healing! I enjoyed your parody of medicalspeak so much! Maybe all they can really do is try to describe, so that they can think and feel later on. In the meantime, I think you're doing so many healing things for yourself! Being outdoors with nature, and the ballet of the trees was such a beautiful description! Also, the love your husband has for you just shines through in that story. Your paintings, as always, astounding and magical! Music to feed the soul. Truly your heart weaves your healing! Jeremiah has it right when he calls you “Radiant one!” Always, you dance in beauty.
I so 'get' the doctor speak - I have to have surgery next month on my right knee after a fall at work last november. I read the report of the CT scan and thought they had it wrong they were talking about my left knee (both scanned for comparison) turns out that they are both damaged with the left being the worst. Surgery however will be on the right knee because it is causing all the problems! I hope they are able to explain the problem to you soon.
So glad that you had some NIAP time in the redwoods. Would love to talk soon - Megan xxxx
Oh yes! That was the funniest interpretation of a MRI, Ultra sound, X-ray, CTscan, whatever! I'd like to see what you'd read into the tea leaves and knuckle bones of my fibroid Ultra sound! I sort of figured out that I had two of them, one big, one small. How's that for summing up what was a single page, single spaced, small font test result?!
I think you should make a living interpreting everyone's test results using the same language you used for yours! At least they would get a laugh out of it instead of scratching their heads and wondering if their doctor has been abducted by wee ones!
Hugs and Smiles to you Dryad! Thanks for letting us borrow your funny bone!
amber
RE If you speak this language… “Fibro-oid-nad has gone ske-bumpus on the tiddley- twaddley…”
Seriously though (ha ha) this weekend I was in ceremony with Ohlone, Apache, Mayan… I can't name who-all… and upspake a woman that the grandmothers had told her to take out her uterus and bury it the ground with healing herbs. I thought for 10 full seconds that she meant 'physically remove' since her huge tumor had gone ske-bumpus on the tiddley-twaddley, but she meant in her mind's eye (vision-quest if you will). My dear friend, sitting next to me in this women's council, whirled her head round back at me, shot me a glance, eyes wide, knowing that I had been guided (with my size-of-a-6-month-fetus fibroid tumor) to do essentially the same thing (in my case; to walk the physical land of my people; Scottish Highlands, with my mother, brother & sister..).
In both cases this give-away, giving-up was a profound stepping deeper into our magnificent body journey (healing of a lineage is what I say). Both bled, both shed, lumps & clumps (you get the picture!). We both do have our wombs this day. We neither of us have the tumors. Since this was my first mirror image encounter, now I am seriously (ha ha) wondering how many of us are there out there..??!!
We've swept out our wombs
and painted them green
with roses round the door
Now whoever comes is coming
to renew, restock, restore;
that's what it's for..
love Corrina
Redwood and Spring energy surging through you … along with all of this love that you have here. Well, when you are being your “inner” horse … your spine is strong and flexible … after all these horses that we “become” are not only riding on the ground - they also have the capacity to FLY!!!! and I see you Winnie … flying through this pain and regaining your CORE STRENGTH.
I love all the suggestions shared here. You are ALIVE and living … your spine is as strong as the magestic REDWOOD tree! You move as gracefully as the wildflowers blooming throughout the woods … and your mind is alive and reaching out to so many of us.
You are so very loved. Feel it. Be it.
Peridot